[Q-P-Doll]

Throughout this relationship, there's been more bad than good, & he really has been a jerk. He always used to say "well if it wasn't for me" and would call me a gold digger, and even with the littlest things, like online games for example he'd make me feel like I wasn't contributing to my group, like I was freeloading off of everyone else's work, & they'd be better off without me. He nickel and dimed me on our anniversary & many other times, even when I DID have a job, and paid for half of everything. (college students)

Now he graduated & after a year of looking, he found a job in oct. I'm still in school & don't have a job, & when he comes over he pays for EVERYTHING. I feel guilty. Also, the place is always a mess, & I haven't been taking care of myself, and I just feel like the way I am right now I'm not good enough, & I'm scared he'll find someone better and leave me.

So I plan to do something for him friday. But I'm confused because I wanted this r/s to end. What should I do?