[I feared losing my job]

...did and lied about what was in mail? I had to lie to ups express about the contense when sending the package of medicine that is illegal to send and was Iafraid ,and I also feared losing my job if I didnt do what they requested,Eventhough I know I didnt want to do it and it seemed wrong to me,I sent the package,cause I thought Id lose my job and dissapoint my employer.They never received the med package and I feel sick to my stomach going in to work tomorrow.I feel like I dont want to work for my employer s,cause of them putting me in this position,what can I do or say ???,I need help with what I sould so next?. Oh and I also talked to my doctor and he increase my medicine I take for worrying very much...Thanks for listining
thnaks for your answers...What was in the package was medications,pills/and liquid meds ro inject /no syrings though. Iwas told by ups and fedex that it was illegal for to send meds to mexico,it must be true if they said it I told my employers it was illegal to send they said just send it in and envolope they will never know