[Earthgirl]

My mom was told when I was twelve I had issues by my school counselor. At 16 I was dx w/ clinical depression and was told to take meds. At that time, thought I could conquer the world and family was against meds so I did not take them. At 23 had first child then 24 second child. Soon after dx with post partum depression. Tried treatment but meds made me want to jump in front of truck so ended up inpt at huge well known hosp. Started treatment there and was dx Bipolar. Have been there for 6 years with 3 inpt stays for breakdowns. Been told over and over I am difficult case. Last outpt program was suggested consider ECT (electroconvulsive shock therapy) Have been doing this for months. Also on meds. I feel ECT has improved moods but not completely. Recently med nurse looked at me and said "Do you think you are bipolar?"
I was like..."I have been here for 6 years taking a ton of meds, had bad interactions, now having shock treatment and now you are questioning my dx???" What to do?
Thanks Everyday. I would like that. I thought that is what the therapists were supposed to help you with but they just stare at me and wait for me to talk.