[money4nothin18]

The one person i was able to tell everything to was my brother, now I feel scared to tell him anything. Im 17 and gay and since Easter/Christmas he has said some really homophobic things. He doesn't know i'm gay but I think it will crush him if I do.
Firstly, hes always asking me about my lovelife, I don't know what to tell him. I can't tell him the truth so I lie to him and make things up. He has no idea ive had bfs.
Secondly he's always saying how wrong it is to be gay.
Thirdly, At Easter he said to my mum ' Least none of your children are gay' . And they both laughed and said 'I know, im Lucky.'
It's my 18th soon and he keeps saying he can't wait to go clubbing with me and getting me to pull some girls. I don't know what to do. I can't tell him, hes one of those macho guys who love girls.

p.s I have no problem with myself, just hurting my bros feelings. He's been like a father to me.