| It would appear you have many more problems than can be addressed here...it also appears that you are attempting to write above your own intelligence...
It would seem to me that you would benefit from professional help of some kind...
You actually sound like a an angry teenager trying to make sense of stuff we all did at one time..and you will eventually stop trying since most of life makes no sense...
so therefore, you'll most likely benefit from these words..."just be"...it's all any of us can do... |