[muniquita534]

just broke up wit my fiance a month ago. we been off and on durin the month up til now. Last week I told him i was completely done with him. We've known each other for 2 years (best friends) and we've been together for 7 months until the break up. I'm 20 yrs and so is he (he's also a marine). I been suffering from bpd (borderline personality disorder) and clinical major depression since 14. I tried tellin my ex bout my situation b4 we got 2getha so he cud understand wut I was goin thru. But becuz my intense irratibility and anger hurt him, he says he bcame depressed in the process. I felt guilty because I never meant to hurt him the way I did. But I honestly was mad at alot of decisions made and promises broken. He isnt ready for marriage becuz he said that I'm using the illnesses as an excuse 4 my behavior nd he basically abondoned me. I was willin 2 support him when he leaves 4 Iraq on 5-17-08 but he cant support me? He calls me @ 4 dis mornin sayin he cared-I'm confused but love himAlso I'm also seeking help right now for both issues and am on anti depressants. I truly love him and want things to work out. But he has to understand that he cant hold this ilness against me when he doesnt even do ANYTHING to try and help. He's going to be away for a year and more and right now i'm in school and working. I'm putting my life on hold for min because I want a future with him. He's my best friend before anything and it hurts that he doesnt think how I do. I wanna be there for him through everything cuz thats wut love is all about, taking a person for their flaws and all and support and help them when they're trying to make a difference in themselves. I never cheated, never lied, hell I was living in his PARENTS HOUSE and I guess he figured they could keep an eye on me when he's gone but I didnt care because truly LOVE him. I'd do anything for him. Then this morning he calls and he says that he still cares for me when b4 he said he didnt n e more. I'm movin on but wtf??To one of the answers below... u have no idea how much information i printed out and HIGHLIGHTED for him to look over and understand. I even asked him to go with me to one of my sessions to speak with a therapist but he refused to go with me. He basically said that I have to do this on my own. I plan on moving on with my life and the career I chose is Cosmetology because i want to direct hair and fashion shows ( i also do fashion design). I'm strong enough to go on by myself but I just dont want to end a relationship thats worth saving and worth working on.