[doglover9013]

i was growing up my mom had always accused my dad of cheating, i was always on his side because i was a dads girl. my mom always said that we would find out the truth one day, i remember screaming violently at her to shut up and it wasn't true, dad just sat in the drivers seat like ignoring the whole thing. my mom died 4 years ago of cancer, and come to find out its all true he cheated on her from the time he got her pregnant with me (first kid) untill the day she died. (he was sleeping with his current wife when my mom was on her death bed, mom and her were previous friends but shes a manipulative jerk) so my dads a big whore, hes the reason my family was torn apart, because of sex. i see sex in a neg. view because of this, im not ready for sex...everytime i think about or am im the middle of foreplay i start to think of how im so screwed up and life was turned upside down because of sex and i freak out. i know sex is a part of life and id like to participate. how do i get over this?