| What are people thoughts?!?
My thoughts are that you've had what one can only hope is a temporary lapse in sanity. If you need something to bolster your self-image, it's far better to use your brain than your body. How can you, possibly, think this would be a self-fulfilling road for you to travel? Doesn't it sound, to you, as if it's, instead, a road to self-destruction? It isn't normal behaviour to want to put yourself in the position of causing men to have erotic fantasies while you expect to remain distant - where is the "glamour" in this? How many of your male relatives, who love you, would think this to be a "plan" for your future which is acceptable and within the bounds of decency? Wouldn't it be a sorry state of affairs to meet a young man you are, sincerely, interested in and tell his parents your "career" is being a pole dancer? After 911 is called, to bring his mother to the hospital, I don't think you would be seeing him again.If possible, the wise thing for you to do would be to move back home with your parent(s) and investigate the possibility of taking a career aptitude test at the local high school. Beauty fades but a trashed reputation doesn't and an education is something no-one can take from you.
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