just found out my mom has cancer and need some info...?

[Mrs. Giggles]

Hi! I just found out last week that my mom has breast cancer and is going to have her whole breast removed in a few weeks. I am one of 4 children the middle child of the girls and I was the last one to find out because my family new I would fall apart. My husband new but kept it from me for a few weeks and I was very angry at him for doing so and I felt bad for being mad but it didn’t last long. I have a 4 month old baby that was born a premmie so I have a lot on my plate and I guess they just didn’t want to stress me anyone then I already am. Anyway when my mom has her surgery I will half to take care of my 12 yo brother and 14 yo sister while my dad is taking care of my mom at the hospital. I guess what I really need to know is if there is anyone out there that can kind of give me a little more info of what to expect when all this starts. Maybe how long recover is and I know she going to half to do kemo “however you spell it” and just any kind of insight you have would be wonderful.
I have had my whole self being tested when the baby came early and I watched her helplessly while she was in the hospital until she was strong enough to come home but im not sure that I can be strong and do it again this soon. I know I half to be and im trying so hard to find it within myself but I really don’t feel like talking about it with anyone around me. I don’t want anyone near me to know that it hurts me I want everyone to think im strong and I can handle this.