Losing a Family Member?

[devilchild]

It's been almost three months since my daddy died. I can still see the day he died very clearly in my head. Every day I wake up and hope that it is just a horrible dream. Then I'm hit with reality. I so badly just want to shut the world out and go back in time and somehow find a way to keep him alive. I wish it was me in his place. Everyday is harder than the day before. It's gotten to the point now to where I can't sleep at night because when I do go to sleep I relive that day over and it's tearing me apart. I can't talk to anybody about it because I don't want to hurt my mom and sister anymore than they already are. My sister has adjusted well to life without our dad and so has my mom. Everyday I think about him and everywhere I look I see him. I can't seem to stop crying. I don't even want to pursue my teaching dream anymore because it doesn't have the same meaning to me anymore. It hurts too much to think about life without him. How does one person get over somthing like this? Help