why am I gay? why me? I dont feel good sometimes about this feeling? sometimes I would like to have a family y

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you know something normal.. but I can't stop thinking about men.. despite I have one year almost for came out.. I still thinking why me.. what was the problem as well my mom asked herself those questions.. in the past and yet she asked herself.. any bad karma?
despite I have consulted a phsiquiatric and physcology for my anxiety... the first one told me once.. he can help me to be straight now he says he saw the homosexuality is natural... well I know it's natural but why me..
btw I live in Mex.. not in USA or those countries where gays can make a parade and go on the streets..
oops I am sorry for my bad english.. I speak spanish because it's my first language... I am learning english..