Would you go to family reunion with a family you barely knew/bad history?

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I never really knew my dad's family except for seeing them at furnerals etc. My dad was the black sheep of the family because he murdered his first wife back in the 60's before I was born. No one relaly treats me different but I've always carried that shame like something was wrong with me. That's probably why I've been in an abusive marriage for 15 years( I'm leaving soon).
The question is would you go to the family reunion? I never keep in touch with them even though we exchange numbers, I always feel kinda left out because mostly everyone else grew up around eachother and I feel like I'm not in their clique or whatnot. Most of the family is nice towards me but I still feel like someone is gossiping about me or my dad (who died 3 years ago).
The other issue is, I'm a singer and my family wants me to sing at every funeral and event and I get sick of it . I just want to go without the pressure of singing and just enjoy like everyone else for a change. It seems like my uncle just
wants me to come and sing above everything else, and told me I didn't have to pay for anything. Then when I agreed to yesterday, his ***** of a wife gets on the phone and says I have to pay for my food (then she puts the phone down and gossips in the background). I don't mind paying the $12 for my food but I really don't want to sing. They want me to sing gospel which is not my forte ( i like it but it's not what i feel the most). They are mostly fake church folks and if I do go, I really just want to go to mingle for a little while and leave, not sing. And I've even had a cousin or two hit on me! Is that unusual?