I hear voices of my family when I start applying for jobs, What should I do ?

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I hear all these complaints and demands and reasons and all that when I start applying for jobs.

I recently drove to Texas from New York due to my abusive and dysfunctional family. My mom used to constantly , to the point of harassing , and say , find a job , find a job , find a job all the time ..Now when I sit down to apply for a job ,at my uncles house, Her voice comes to my head and it discourages me.

I would love to find a job here in Texas since they have a lot of jobs in my field , But I hear my mom's voice and the families pressure to find a job . I am an independent kind of person . I don't like to take any commands from anybody , especially since all commands I got from a dysfunctional family was lies and false ones. I want to start applying for jobs . I already have my resume . Just have to fix up my cover letter to match each jobs. I desperately need to overcome this "high pressure , no job no life , find a job-nagging thoughts from my head.
What should I do?