Lost a friend last weekend.?

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He was a good guy, everyone loved him. He was funny, cool, and always was the life of the party. It was a pretty depressing day at work. He was killed in a car accident. And my other friend was the driver and is in critical condition.
It also kind of brought something in me that bothered me. I wish it would have been me instead of him. He was someone who definately cant be replaced, and so many people were close to him. At my work, many people were grieving. It's like he was our brother, son, uncle, cousin, whatever anyone felt he was to them. Basically, he was like family. I looked up to him cuz he always had this way of looking out, treating me like one of the crowd. Now he's gone.
I am basically still a newcommer to this work. So, I really felt like an outsider today. I started thinking, "If it were me, would anyone care?". Cuz damn, the whole place was quiet, and depressing.
I know at these times, it's sort of a selfish way of thinking, but an event like this kind of brings so many thoughts to your mind.
Anyone ever felt like that? Guilt, and feeling like it should have been you? You feel unimportant, or atleast more unimportant than you already felt? I just got alot of mixed thoughts right now. I feel real bad for his girl, his family, and anyone else close to him.
I dont understand why they always gotta take the good people.