I need some help with my situation about me and my guy friend?

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im really upset and was wondering if anyone can just talk to me about what im going through. ill try to make this as short as possible
1 all through grammar and junior high this kid mike was attratced to me.
2 im a freshman and college and ive been friends with him for a year now
3 we had sort of a freidns with benefits relationship and didnt go far. before and during this time i had a feeling he liked me. he wanted to make that clear and i basically let him know that i was interested in him that way
4 during our "relationship" i was attracted to him but not romantically. i guess i was just in the mood for the type of relationship i had. he is a really good guy and treated me with respect. hes caring and has similar interests.
5 i found out yesterday he is dating someone else. i really am happy for him, but i still feel jealous and sad. i now this sounds pathetic, but its true. i mean even before they started dating i was thinking about my feelings for him.
ive been comparing the feelings ive had for him to the ones ive had for my previous crushes. they do not seem the same. im not sure maybe i am in the beginning stages of this crush, but then again ive had months to figure this out. i mean i love him as a friend hes really great and i am not sure if im into the idea of him as opposed to really attracted to him. im upset because i think i really want an intimate relationship. im not an attention seeker, but he gave me the affection i wanted and now he will give that to someone else. anyway, ive been working on these feelings of rejection and intimacty issues ive been having, im sure this is part of it and it sounds like i have my answer. i know you cant solve this for me, but i just need some other people to talk to about this situation and i would like your opinions or advice for overcoming these feelings. i feel like he was a perfect opportunity for me and i had him, but now i lost him. i dont know... thanks.