| At 19, I never had sex? Hi.Let me introduce myself: I am 19 years old. I have a Master's Degree (DON'T ASK - IT IS POSSIBLE, NOT ALL 19 YEAR OLDS ARE STUPID AND INEXPERIENCED). I have a full time job as a college professor.I never had even one boyfriend in my life. Nor did I even kiss one. I am not in a relationship right now, nor am I engaged or married.I went through college having my head in books. I never went out with friends, nor did I have any. I am straight and have been all my life. I have had several crushes in Jr High School, and then in college (high school went by too fast for me because I graduated at 16). All of them turned into failures because I could only say "I like you" to him and that was enough to get him away from me forever. I worked back then as well. I'm not ugly, stupid, or immature. I'm not annoying, provoking, or molesting. I find myself very energetic, inspirational, determined, independent, driven, and motivated. I influence my students to do good things with their lives and I’ve been honored by staff and faculty at my job where I teach. I’m very happy with my life and my job – it’s what keeps me going.But I never had friends, boyfriends, parties, etc. I’m always forgotten – no one remembers my birthday, no one ever congratulates me on anything. Everyone I know is just simply jealous of me! I’m sick of this!But most importantly… I have no guy in my life, and I want one. I see all girls together with someone, holding hands, kissing, etc… People always told me when I was younger “oh you’ll get one soon… don’t worry.” Well, here I am, a college professor and still alone. I grew up in a poor family, so I know what it means to work hard.I’m not mean or stubborn. I just don’t get my problem! I teach, I come home, and I don’t do anything!!! Because I can’t go out with anyone, or date anyone, or anything.I’m a virgin, so sex has never been there for me (and I’m ok with dying a virgin)… I just want a guy to be in my life!!! He could be older than me – up to 15 years! I know what I’m doing so I know he won’t use me because I won’t let him.I’m just saying that I’m… lonely.Please don’t suggest: go clubbing or casino or something. I don’t want to meet guys who spend their lives in casinos, clubs, or whatnot. I want serious men who know what they are doing – who have jobs, education, etc.What do I do?Please help.PS. For those who are wondering...here is a layout of my education:Jr High School Diploma - 14 y/oHigh School Diploma - 16 y/oA.A. degree - 17 y/oB.A. degree - 18 y/oM.A. degree - 19 y/oYES, THIS IS POSSIBLE. Yes, I moved out at 18, and no I am not rich and my family didn't support me so that I could "only get my education and not work." Oh no... I know what it's like to work hard. And no, I am not Asian. I'm Mexican.I don't want to be some self-disrespectul slut to please a guy, so I'm wondering how fight myself being this lonely.I am social - I'm energetic, I'm passionate, I'm the loudest and most known professor on the whole campus!!! Being confindent and believing in myself is NOT my problem - I got that down a LONG time ago.GUYS are my problem.. I don't get why I can't have one when 12 year olds have one.If it matters... my M.A. is in Spanish Language and Culture.Oh please.. someone report skull boy. As for dating sites... no, I don't need those. I need to meet him personally. I have been in love with one guy who is 12 years older than me for the past 5 years - he found out and won't even talk to me.To "blah", I'm tired of people commenting on how I got my education. My M.A. is 30 units which is simply done in one year. I'm sick of people insulting me on this.No, I am not overweight. I'm 120lbs and 5'4" tall. |