about self injury(serious people only) and I'm not emo..how do I stop cutting?

[Never to late]

I started cutting when I was 12 at first they were small nobody even noticed...I was in 6th grade elemantry school. A few months ago I wasn't getting the same feeling from those small cuts on my arms. So I had to cut deeper and deeper so some people noticed at my school and I was instantly an "EMO" Some of the kids that knew even started treating me better like i deserved there respect..

I dont want to cut everytime its deeper and Im afriad of what I might do..... I just live with my dad and he has no idea....hes always at work and I only see him on the weekend because his stupid work hours Im afraid to tell him....I was talking to my aunt once about people who cut hoping maybe she would say sumthing that would let me tell her I cut but she just said they were mental and needed help

I dont want my family thinking of me that way..I dont know why I cut I guess just for the special feeling but I do know I want to stop Ive posted this before but didnt get much real help..now im 14