What does this body language mean??!?

[Susan Lowenstein]

theres a lady that never had a father when she was little and her mother and step father emotionally abused her and was told she was ugly (when she is the most stunning women I have EVER seen) and she has low self confidence even though shes very talented and beautiful. her mom and step dad told her she would never make it big in life, and never said i love you to her. they told her she wasnt beautiful enough to be famous. whenever someone talks to her about her childhood or the father that died when she was 15 months old she starts blinking a little more, and she like moves her jaw sort of side to side slowely and licks her lips a little and sort of moves her tonge a little back and forth and her eyes just look really sad. its like she doesnt want to think of her past and remember it or be sad, but sometimes she even brings it up and brings up her father. what does this body language mean? what do you think she is THINKING when she does that body language?
p.s. this lady is 65.