How does a divorced female, not a swinger, rebuild a decent life? little money.?

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Since divorcing 23 yrs. ago, treated worse than dog. Couldn't do
to stray dog what was done to me & my kids. Not chem. dep. Am Female
Hetero, Christ. Fund. Non Cath.Meth. Look my worst now. Private,
law abiding. 6 of last 23 had adeq food clothes, shelter. Ostracized. All but 3 places I lived needed condemning. Churches attended &
tithed to had empty rental property modern. Reported attorneys who solicited me. Wanted to sue for money, not with them. Denied
representation, smeared, slandered, stalked.Bullied, silenced, battered,
dumped. Moved out of state x sev to put behind start over.wouldn't let me. I like me.
I am a nice person. Will take sodium p never into illegal drugs, no thief, cheat, not promiscuous, no swinger. Was RN had office skills, no work.
alllowed .This is not about alcoholism & mental illn. or needing meds,Yrs offmy life, health harmed. Intelligent, capable.
Cannot take any more. Tired of hassle & ostracism. No casual sex.
Not option. Not ready to die.