Should I try to fix my marriage?

[wishy]

My husband is disabled and always in pain, he's an alcoholic and addicted to morphine. We stopped having sex and he and I both would just drink all the time and ignore each other. He would always get mad at me and call me names. I left for a few months and stopped drinking. I met someone and had a relationship online for 8 months and we met but haven't had sex. I am really in love with this guy, he is so supportive and good to me. I told my husband I want a divorce and then he went to rehab and is sober now and much better. He says he still loves me and it doesn't matter what happened, and he says that he respects me more now. I am still with my bf and I feel guilty and confused and I don't know if I should be in a relationship at all right now. I hate hurting my husband, but I can't imagine life without my bf. I don't feel in love with my husband at all and my bf wants to marry me and have a family and that's what I want. But I think I could make my marriage work if I really tried.

[mommie]

i agree with lorelei...........u have answered ur own question. nothing any of us could say would in reality change that.