How do you get rid of emotional pain?

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People tell me I should talk about it, and I'm going to start seeing the school counselors and stuff, but talking about it doesn't make it go away. Cutting yourself just leaves ugly scars and you have to make up lies and it's not good and I've prayed on it so thank God I've slowed up on that big time. I write really good and my teacher says I should submit my work to contest, but my own mother never even bothers to read it. Same with my music; I've picked up piano and acoustic guitar (and I hope to better electic guitar, drums, violin, & electric bass) and I'm good at it, but my mom doesn't really bother to listen to me progress... like now, I need knew guitar strings and I've been wanting to go to the guitar store for months but nobody's bothered to take me. I'm litteraly ignored, so when I'm visiting relatives, they do what they can for me while I"m in town. I'm verbally abused, I've been failing school because I've lost focus and hope. I haven't even really got out in months. I'm 16