help please!!! can my friend forgive me? this may sound odd for a philosophy...

[amaretto sour]

...question..? but you guys are intelligent i became close friends with my friend mike last year. we are 18 and in junior high he loved me. when we became close i could tell he liked me, but i decided to have a friends with benefits relationship. (we didnt have sex thought) he initiated it, so i figured everything would be fine. throughout the "relationship" i let him know i wasnt attracted to him because i knew deep down he was attracted to me. we stopped being intimate and i asked him if he wanted to go back to being "fwb" and he said yes then later he said no. i agreed. i was afraid of getting into more trouble. part of me didnt want to hurt him and part of me just agreed so that i wouldnt look stupid. as time goes on, he has progressively gotten ruder to me-- ignoring my im's and being curt with me. all this time i thought he was the jerk and it turns out i am the one who ripped his heart out! im new to this stuff i never made friends in high school and i am new to real relationships.
i want to know if you have been through this and if you have forgiven/or been forgiven in this situation. thank you a lot.
i feel like a horrible person.

[Laney]

every one has been through it. make friend
but don't get intimate with them. intimately
should be with someone
closer then a friend.

best wishes laney
learned from experience's