is my philosophy messed up?

[futuredoc]

k so basically im 18, when i was 13 i was molested by my brother, when i was 14 it was by a teacher, now im 18 and now its not such a thing of being controlled but because im good looking that ive escaped 3 attempted rapes and seductions in the last 2 months, i feel like sooner or later its gonna happen, u dont egt luck so many times. i was gonna wait till i get married to lose my virginity but i dont want some ruthelss rapist to take it so now im just gonna end up sleeping with someone i choose, so if/when i get raped i already wont be a virgin. im not one of those ppl who think bad things always happen to them, im very optimistic, but ive been hurt enough by guys that i know this is the aprt of the package that comes with being pretty and i have to get used to it. what should i do?

[nichelle.]

you say you are optimistic, yet say you are worried about getting raped...
you're contradicting yourself.
Rape isn't about banging the most prettiest girl, it's about power.
since you've been raped so many times its normal to think this, but you are going to be alright.

[Metal Head Taco F***er]

you should'nt just have sex with someone out of worry that you're gonna get raped