am i actually in love with him and how much, please voice ur opinion.?

[Bestie's 4LIFE]

well. i feel like i really love him like REALLY REALLY love him. he's so amazing, he makes me so happy, he makes me laugh, he even makes me smile when i'm crying. sometimes i just feel like yelling out i love u n den him name of course. he means everything to me and i really truely care about. this Mon that just passed (monday 14th july) i realized how important he really is to me and how much i REALLY love him, i'm always thinking about him and daydreaming about him. i want to spend the rest of my life with him. he's only 4yrs n 6mnths older than me, thats nothing, he said to his mum when she asked him about me n wat u he feels or however she asked him any way he said that i'm too young for him(which i'm not and everyone i know agrees on that) and that he not thinking about anything serious he wants to be friends, do u think he was shy to tell his mum the truth. please give your opinion and just say wat u think he's thinking of it all.
he's showed me all the signs that he likes me and i can feel that he loves me, my instincts are usually always correct. the last time i saw him he was just sitting there and lookin at me, i was pretending that i dnt like or love him to hide it from his sister, father, mother n my bestie's mum. when he was lookin at me he looked so sad n looked like he was gonna cry, i knew something was wrong but i couldn't pin point wat it was. did i actually make him think that i dont like him while i was just trying to hide it from them not him.