All religions are false for being organized? How can today's church be

[meatheadjoe]

Jesus' original 1st century church lol? Is there any evidence that early christians worshipped a trinity or anything else about Jesus like today or is there nothing hence why people say he never existed? I've studied christianity for a while. I'm obsessed with knowing the reeeeal historical Jesus. The mystery question is: Who Was Jesus? Is he just a myth? If so how and why?Josephus the roman writer said he drawed thousands to see him do miracles and he was crucified and his follower John was executed...but this was written well in the time period that Paul had hijacked Christianity. I also have problems with Christianity being with the New Testament continuing the jewish Old Testament (Torah). God wants us to punish women for their crimes by shaving their heads and pulling out her nails? He wants parents to kill their children for hitting them? What about forgiveness of Jesus? This is totally inconsistent. And don't scientologists believe aliens inspired the bible when they came lol? I admit 66 books 40 authors seems like a
.....like a miracle, but what truly makes the bible any different than the collection of other mythical books of different countries/cultures like Egyptian Book Of The Dead and the Mayan scriptures? I mean really...I'm sure in those days they didn't just write myths coz they were bored. Sure they would want to gather up all the scriptures and put them in order, so maybe it's not such a miracle.

Anyway my main inquiry is about the apparent absolute truth of Christianity. Therefore it is not a religion becuase christians say religions are false and christianity is a relationship with God. Ok, so how come from history christianity seems to be the most dreadfully corrupted and the bible most tampered of all religions/books? Constantine deleted the true books right? I mean, check out JUSTGIVEMETHETRUTH.COM This has to be the first christian site that rejects Paul as Satan in the flesh!!! And one last thing...eternal punishment. This unjust doctrine is false according to cults JW etc
I always thought too that the diabolical torture of all eternity in hell had only one way out to satisfy God: the death of his son Jesus Christ. So how then do Jehovah's Witnesses define his death? What is its meaning? I mean isn't that the greatness of Jesus? He has saved the whole of humanity from eternal damnation. Unless they aren't christian of course......
With all these long sub-questions I have lol the main question is important: How can today's church be the same? Isn't it gullable to think Paul was a genuine saint? Come on, he's the boss of the church. Like all religions, he MADE it a religion. The biggest today, and all for greed, power, fear and control. Should I then find spirituality my own way? Is religion evil of man and not from God? I just wonder...about absolute truth. Wondering that the bible could be absolute truth despite my research lol! Coz Jesus makes me feel so gooood inside