INSANE story of the Ex, pain, stds and a new man. (would love the womens opinion)?

[Dazed and confused]

23/m/virgin/first love
-feel in love with a woman a year ago - was amazing - we had a bit of a break, she went to her ex and got an std - she was devastated and i didnt care, i loved her - cried in my arms for months - sent way to many mixed messages - scared me not to sleep with her because she was so nervous about hurting me and didnt know what she wanted - she was so fragile anyways i never could tell her i was a virgin because she thought i was perfect. so sexually it was always awkward, made us say really mean stuff to each other over a year - recently had a fight ended it - went out again and it was magic all over again - she takes two weeks off and comes back and tells me she still loves me but a "new guy" (an old friend) makes her feel more desirable - i forgave her but was so hurt (i always let her walk all over me) - i spent a good month fighting to get her back - she went insane, i went insane, things got stalkerish/manipulative on both sides - ends up shes going out with
with this new guy - we do the exchange of stuff - i say in my delisiounal state "im so glad i could make contact with you" - we fight - i tell her not to contact me anymore, she emails me tells me to stay away from her - i told her a few weeks prior that i was a virgin - but i went online after a week of not talking to her and her msn away is "you make me feel like the worst person in the world" - i mean christ! she broke up with me twice, she has a the new man in her life??? i tried - i love her with all my heart but arghhh, what is she doing to me!

does she love me still? is she confused? is she toying with me? what the heck is going on!?
does she not realize how hurt i am??
p.s he lives down the road from me! so i see her car parked there overnight!!

[whitetiger731421]

Sounds as though she does love you but is not sure what she wants. There is nothing wrong with you being a virgin either. You are just waiting for the right woman. I dont really know if she is the one for you though. Give her some time and space so as to let things cool off. You only hurt each other by going back and forth. If it is meant to be, you will find your way back to each other.