How can I respond to God? What lesson is he teaching me? How can I move...

[Curious George]

...on? How can I restore my Vision? Christians Only~
After graduation from college, I was at a mission field. Upon coming back, I thought God called me to a ministry. I was thinking about joining a para church to become a staff. however upon financial difficulty and closed doors, it did not happen. therefore I started looking for a job. it was really hard. it took me over months to get a job upon deciding not to do ministry for now. After about two weeks of working, however I got laid off. What lesson is God teaching me? seems like no open doors to ministry or like a job, how can I move on? When I seem to have no opportunity? Because of no jobs, it is also hard to meet friends and have social life... it feels like I am trapped or have no Vision.. Although I hope in God , pray, be patients. life is hard. How can this life turned into a blessing? what lesson is God teaching me if I seem to lose opportunity? How can God open the windows of opportunities for me? any experiences with hardship? What can be learned?